FOUR-CALENDAR CAFÉ LP 1994
know who you are at every age
My senses are addicted to a desperate desire to observe such,
feel such, behave such, neglect is hard for me.
I'm not real and I deny
I won't heal unless I cry.
I can't grieve so I won't grow,
I won't heal 'til I let it go.
I'm not real and I deny
I won't heal unless I cry.
My senses are addicted to a desperate desire to observe such,
feel such, behave such, neglect is hard for me.
I'm not real and I deny, I won't heal unless I cry,
I can't grieve so I won't grow, I won't heal 'til I let it go.
I'm not real and I deny
I won't heal unless I cry.
I can't grieve so I won't grow,
I won't heal 'til I let it go.
Cry, cry, cry do you know why,
I lost myself identify (x2).
I'm not real and I deny
I won't heal unless I cry,
I can't grieve so I won't grow
I won't heal 'til I let it go.
Sorrow for letting someone else define you
Know who you are at every age
What impression am I making?
I see me as other people see me
There is no going back
I can't stop feeling now
I am not the same, I'm growing up again
I am not the same
I'm growing up again
There's no going back I can't stop feeling now
I had to fantasize
I was a princess, Mum and Dad were Queen and King
I ought to have what feeling? (I have to hide this feeling)
I see me as other people see me
There is no going back
I can't stop feeling now
I am not the same, I'm growing up again
I am not the same
I'm growing up again
There's no going back I can't stop feeling now
Feeling now
There is no going back, and
I can't stop feeling now
I am not the same, I'm growing up again
I am not the same
I'm growing up again
There's no going back I can't stop feeling now
I had to fantasize
Just to survive
I was a famous artist
Everybody took me seriously
Even those who did
Never understood me
I had to fantasize
Just to survive
bluebeard
Aliveness
Exploration
Aliveness
Energy
Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Aliveness
Exploration
Fulfillment
Creativity
background:
May be diverting
Is empowering
Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Or are you toxic for me?
Will you betray my confidence?
(x2)
Naming things is empowering
I balance, walk, and coordinate to myself, alive
Aliveness energy
Healthy dependence
And healthy independence
And healthy assurances
This love's a nameless dream
And healthy boundaries
And how long would you miss me
background:
Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Or are you toxic for me?
Will you mistreat me or betray my confidence?
theft, and wandering around lost
My body's offended
He took my belief
And I give back his shame
And I take back my power
My body is my own
My body is mine alone
And I deserve protection
And I can create it for you
Is this what my body said?
"Use me
Drain me
Fall around me"
Is this what my body said?
"Engulf me
I'm already dead"
I have a feel of things
Crying shakes the wall for you
And I am moving to poison love
And drown the stars above you
My body is my own
My body is mine alone
And I deserve protection
And I can create it for you
Is this what my body said?
"Use me
Drain me
Fall around me"
Is this what my body said?
"Engulf me
I'm already dead"
Keep cutting myself on the edges of reality, reality
(x2 & on 3rd on 4th time use below as background)
Is this what my body said?
"Use me
Drain me
Fall around me"
Is this what my body said?
"Engulf me
I'm already dead"
First
He's inchulectial
Anxious
Her hand begs
My distraction
Distraction
I will learn
To focus on
Oh, you hoo hoo...
Cause you won't
Recognize it
Stablize it
Things take- take me
To exception look for respect
Respect
Down- down there
You're not a nice track footfall
Round
Will we still hold
(Rain)
Things we couldn't do
(Strive)
For me to live
Rights of her
(Rights)
Treasure her
(Treasure)
Her freshness
First
He sinch election
Anxious
Oh, her hand begs
My distraction
Distraction
I will learn to
(I will learn)
Focus on you
(To focus on)
You hoo hoo...
Cause you won't
Recognize it
(Recognize)
Stablize it
(Stablize it)
He even finds a way
Supreme, man improves
Like what might he
Her life for everyone
Will it still hold
(Rain)
Things we couldn't do
(Strive)
For me to give
Rights of her
(Rights)
Treasure her
(Treasure)
Her freshness
I will learn
To focus on you
You hoo hoo...
Cause you won't
(fade out)
There is a wait and that's what hurt
Makes it happen, fill the gap
It spreads her hair all about
My steps
If I do it slow
No, no threats
No, no fights
No fantasies
Lucy
I hurry back to make him feel
(Lucy, Lucy, Lucy)
I have to make him feel better
(Lucy, Lucy, Lucy)
And oh, I know, no I can't
Freshness
You amaze me
No, no threats
No, no fights
No fantasies
Lucy
(x2)
How he'll never come to freshness
You amaze me
How he'll never come to freshness
You amaze me (x3)
How he'll never come to freshness
You amaze me
Looking at love as faces I could give this
You amaze me
No threats, no fights, no fantasies
You amaze me (x3)
No, no threats
(No threats, no fights)
No, no fights
(No threats, no fights)
No fantasies
(No fights, no fantasies)
Lucy
(No, no, no threats)
No, no threats
(No fights, Lucy, Lucy, Lucy, Lucy)
No, no fights
No fantasies
(No threats, no fights (x2))
Lucy
(No fights, no fantasies, Lucy, Lucy, Lucy)
(x2)
You become a world for his
New heart, accepting
And you can work
Through the pain
Or enjoy the pleasure
Commit to the work of both
If you love all this energy
Not chemistry
And you can work
Through the pain
Or enjoy the pleasure
You can you can you can work
Through the pain
Or enjoy the pleasure
You can you can you can work
Through the pain
And come to peace
It's frightening
Exciting
Something shakes your whole understanding
The truth is not perfect
I infuse, I'm confused to
Say that I'm not angry
You can you can you can work
Through the pain
Or enjoy the pleasure
You can you can you can work
Through the pain
And come to peace
Remember my secret
I'll write it down and never tell you it
It's not harm free
Outside of myself
What can save me?
C-c-c-c-can work through the pain
Or enjoy the pleasure
You c-c-c-c-c-c-can work through the pain
And come to peace
You can work through the pain
Or enjoy the pleasure
You don't have to be so stiff when I wanna hug you
You had a natural right to be born to become
Yes having my small niece becomes acceptable to me
I'd feel angered had I lost you, can't imagine where you might be
Where do baby leaves go when they die
Oh, why I do not know
God is a feeling of loving yourself
You're precious to me, you know that
Stretching your arms
Wrap 'em 'round tight
Loving myself
With all my might
Where do baby leaves go when they die
Oh, why I do not know
Gone is a feeling of loving yourself
You're precious to me, you know that
Take a look inside you'll see
See how I'm doing
A message, something says to me
Tells me I'm all right
So you want a potion to send me away
Daddy, my love cannot get in today
My dream lies here with us, my tears run away.
Our goal, goal collapsed, engergy, unblossomed goal.
May pushes leaves and never feels shame cast her face,
shame cast her face, stall reason starting over please.
Safe at last seeing my thoughts in order,
safe fallen down this way I want to be just what I am.
Steal more treasures, steal more gifts,
kisses and eyes created fires
until we grow up
it won't free you go look for the key.
My consciousness don't look away,
not my keeper I'm not a slave,
not my keeper I'm not a slave,
my truth's not even half of what it was.
Safe at last seeing my thoughts in order,
safe fallen down this way I want to be just what I am.
Safe at last seeing my thoughts in order,
safe fallen down this way I want to be just what I am.
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I'm glad you are a girl
I'm pleased to know you
I like you for you
I'm happy you're growing up
Reach and you won't lose me
Destroy the objective, but still survive (sur-vi-ha-hive)
You are angry and that's okay
Forgetful or pretending
Tired, ill, or angry, or cold
More sure about what to do
What I do care for you
Reach and you won't lose me
Destroy the objective, but still survive
You are angry and that's okay ... yes
I am not afraid of your anger
What do you need? What do you want? (OrWha-ha-haut do you a wa-ha-ant)
I love you and I know that you can figure it out
(x3)